i don't remember what i've posted and what i haven't

I feel like crap. almost every single day.

Perhaps this is the combination of poor diet, poor sleep habits, and high levels of stress and anxiety, all of which can be attributed to poorness in general.

As much as I lament about not living life and hate myself for never having plans for weekends etc etc, I just can't do it.

I have too much work... and too many feelings that too much of my life rides on the work that I need to do.