VACATION

Hedi Slimane

ONE EXAM DOWN.

ONE 5 PAGE PROPOSAL AND ONE PRESENTATION TO GO.

AND THEN I'M GOOONE.

and then I'll be back. but let's focus on the positives.

Hey Maggie,
Yeah I know sometimes it's hard to buckle down and do what you need to do. I know what it's like to lose focus in the middle of doing something. I know how frustrating it is.
Sometimes you have this long stream of thought in your head. It's sort of foggy and slightly unformed, but this seed of an idea is there. You know it can be amazing if you just turn it over a little bit, flesh it out, adjust it where needed. You just need to focus on it a little bit. But you don't. You start, but it gets frustrating. You know you can, but you won't. Maybe it'll get easier if you just let it sit on its own for a little while.
But it doesn't. It's still there half an hour later (maybe after scrolling through ONTD), unformed, floating in your mind, still full of potential. 2 hours later, (after going through lookbook, the fashion spot..) no change. You know, you know that all it takes is about 5 minutes of heavy thinking, 2 minutes of scribbling it down on paper, and crossing it out, adding a word or two. But you're hungry, thirsty, need a break from the computer. Maybe if I go and have a snack, I'll come back energized and ready to attack what needs to be done.
It goes on and on and on.

In your head there's this huge list of things to do. Thinking about it causes heart palpitations. So, you don't think about it. Maybe it'll go away. (It never does.)
Check facebook 50 times a day.
The list gets longer.

An exam on Wednesday? Worth 40%? Have you started studying? No.
It's only Sunday.
But how much will you get done on Monday? Don't you work on Tuesday?
Do you want to graduate?
21 credits to leave York, can easily turn into $500 wasted, an F on your pristine transcript (that you are oh so proud of), and 24 credits to graduate.
Don't you also have a proposal due Thursday? And a presentation?
I think I'll take a nap.
2 hours later. It's 7pm - time for dinner.

You think maybe blogging about it will help.

I know you know that you have shit to do. Just do it. Get it over with. FINISH. Go to Montreal this weekend and celebrate getting SHIT DONE.
Just do it.
...
It's 8pm. Time for Gossip Girl.
I'll get it done after the show.
I promise.

is it sad that i am debating whether or not to have luggage to be checked in for my flight rather than just dealing with a carry-on just so i can transport 2/3 of a bottle of vodka to montreal?

i mean, shampoo and moisturizer too, but mostly the vodka.

wtf

I booked my flight with my dad yesterday afternoon for MTL.
Round trip tickets cost $32.50.
Is this a joke?
Next time anyone wants to go to Montreal, give me a call, I will hook you up.
Downsides: I will have to go with you, and you will have to pay for my fare as well.
Upside: That will still be less than you can ever wish to pay to go, and I know of some really cool places to crash/drink while we're there.
Holla.




Also follow up to the name post.
I was telling my mom the story, and she was like: "Well I made your chinese name into your middle name as two separate names (may kay) because I figured you could pick one and go by that instead..."
whut. why didn't anyone tell me this before?

the hipster grifter

I don't know if any of you have read about this. (Probably not, because I am probably the only one out of all of you who spends an inordinate amount of time on the internet.)

This story blew up all over the blogs/internet last week (therefore making it old news now...)

BUT I am so irritated because this asian bitch has made it marginally harder for me to get laid by bearded indie hipsters from now on.



They all going to be all aware of cute asian girls, who want to "give them a handjob with their mouth" and think that we are all after their money and are going to pretend to have cancer and to be impregnated with their bearded hipster spawn.

SIGH.

As if getting guys wasn't hard enough.

I am never going to hear the end of the hipster grifter jokes.


GET INFORMED HERE:
http://www.observer.com/2009/style/hipster-grifter?page=0


Oh look, it's been less than a week and someone is already profiting from this:
http://www.zazzle.com/kari_ferrell_the_hipster_grifter_tshirt-235352967728702426

NAMES

Up until a couple weeks ago, I've always had a secret wish to get a name change.
Maggie always seemed to be the name of someone's dog, or someone's grandma.
Sometimes I would wish that I had a more common name. Amanda, Christine, Jessica...
I have never appreciated the fact that I had an uncommon (for our generation) name until now.

Some bitch named Margaret in my Environmental Studies class keeps insisting on people calling her Maggie.
This irritates the fuck out of me. Because a) that is MY name. YOU have a name. It is Margaret. WHY THE FUCK would you want to confuse the shit out of EVERYONE by APPROPRIATING mine? b) Her last initial is also 'C'. and c) when attendance is called she always answers for me. NO I AM MAGGIE. YOUR NAME IS MARGARET OFFICIALLY. THAT IS WHAT IS WRITTEN ON THE PAPER.
Also, we have an open forum for the class, and we have group discussions going on with posting research on various indigenous groups. I posted the names of the members present on the forum, the day we started and she was not listed in our group nor was she in class that day. Two days ago I get an email from her, saying that this was her group and wanting an explanation of the project. She signed with 'Maggie'. NO you are not in our group, the name Maggie in the post refers to me. I KNOW she wasn't in our group because I saw her name listed as MARGARET for another group.
I cannot understand how people stand it when their name is Sarah or something and there are like 3 in the class.
I have not fully appreciated my name up until now.
I want to walk up to this girl and write MARGARET on her forehead.

edited to add appropriate gif

MONTREAL

I'm leaving Friday May 1st and coming back Monday May 4th.
I cannot wrap my mind around how cheap it will be to fly there, and the fact that the flight time will be roughly equal to a GO bus trip to UNION STATION. (whaaaatttttt)
I don't think I will ever take the train/bus there ever again. Even with the $40 taxi ride to downtown Montreal, it is still SO MUCH cheaper.
Chris is making his way down from New Brunswick!
I am so excited.

nothing to post about

oh god. the last one.
... i also don't think anyone but rafay will get it ...

dramabombs

I believe david sums it up the best:
"is this real life? why is this happening to me?? will this be forever??"
fuck THAT shit. I am finished with it.


also, this thursday i am having some of my photos exhibited from brazil at a global arts night at york.
6-9
free food. performances. sculptures. paintings. photos.
MY photos...

you guys should come out!

mrahhhhh.
we have reached a consensus on a weekend to meet up in Montreal.
Pretty much everybody has agreed on the first weekend of May.
Details to be announced (ie. for how long, when we will get there, where we will stay...)
But I am so happy and so excited!
I can't wait to go dancing and quiz each others about world capitals in French and speak Portuguese!
I know I've said that I miss these kids, but it hasn't been clear how much I've actually missed them until now.
I am sooo stoked!
I just wish everyone could be there.
We'll be missing 1/3 of the group..
I am just waiting confirmation... yayyyyyyyy!
(hopefully no surprise exams come up. i have an essay due the week after, so this might not be a good idea, but I DON'T CARE!)

gossip girls, drama queens

i have just steeped myself into the most drama i have had to handle in the past year.

to be honest, i stirred the pot a little bit. so i guess i don't really have anyone to blame.

i try to be a bigger person. in my head i know how i should act/react and how to take the higher route... but in the end i still have tendencies to push myself into the passive aggressive category.

but i refuse to be petty.
i won't stoop that low.