procrastination

So check it.
Remember when I posted that awesomely amazing Alexander McQueen clutch ?


Well it turns out that if you don't want the clutch part, you can just have the rings.
And I thought I wanted the clutch really badly....

They also serve dual purposes as awesome jewelery and some pretty hefty (and stylish!) brass knuckles, totally justifying it's $550.00 price tag.

(I mean, in comparison, the clutch is $1595.00...)

So... if any of you are at a loss as to what to get me for Christmas or my birthday....

Materialism

I look at fashion. I appreciate highfashion and brandnames, but I've never really truly wanted anything from the world. I'm fine with my bargain buys and thriftstore duds.
However, this alexander mcqueen clutch is tugging on my heart(and purse)strings.
I'll settle for lusting. But I hope this does not turn into a regular thing for me. My heart nor my wallet can handle it.

FUCK MY LIFE

THE CURVES CLUB I WORK AT IS CLOSING DOWN.
THIS THURSDAY IS MY LAST SHIFT.
OMG SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.


CAPS LOCK

Where to Find....

First image from all for the mountain.

Second image from lj user dearyme on wiwt2.

Sooo if any of you happen to come across any of these items or a decent look-a-like (for less than a chunk of $175.00 on the part of the necklace) snap that shit up for me. I will pay you back, as well as owe you eternal materialistic consumer happiness.

(The shoes are Steve Madden, but so far I've only been able to find them in Black.)

THANK YOU

I'm at work, slightly hung over and INCREDIBLY tired.
I had a dream about sam and this bespectacled american apparel hoody clad man who vaguely resembled my photography TA from last year. We were looking at art and discussing how different a certain painting looked from different perspectives.

It's such a fucking turn off when boys flirt badly. Or when they're completely obvious about it, yet feign subtlety.

This is incredibly fucked up. Because if I do this, I'd be doing exactly what I'm warning against. So what do I do? Turn it all off? Everything? Retreat?

Funny, the one time where things are working out the way I wanted them to, and the situation is almost perfect for what I've been telling myself I need... I stop thinking about myself (for once) and start to think of the implications for the other person involved.

My plans for the summer are also getting kind of complicated. I've been in contact with the Maple School in Indonesia, and although I haven't really heard anything confirming it yet, they seem to be interested in me going out there... but I kind of want to stay close to home this summer. But can I really in good conscience give up the opportunity to be paid to live in Indonesia for 3 months?
There's also the Equitas internship in Montreal that I've also interested in. I've fallen in love with Montreal, and interning with Equitas for a summer might lead to a full time position when I graduate. Parfait. Un raison pour demenager labas. One less thing I'll have to worry about when I do move out there when I'm done school.
This is all assuming that I get any of these positions. They might all not take me, and I will be stuck here trying to find another job for the summer.
Eh, life.

want

i want this dress from RVCA. enough that, after realizing that shipping to Canada on the RVCA website would add another $22.00(wtf) to the price, i got searching and found a website that would send it to me with free shipping. and there is only one size xs left. i am hesitant to order though because a) im not sure how reliable the website (revolveclothing.com) is, and b) i got bills to pay.

also, check out some of LOVER's fall/09 line:

To do

I need to download that post-it note application for my computer, but until then I will have to subject you all to the mundane things that I need to do.

for the IDA:
- design a flyer for weekly meetings [for next thursday]
- design a flyer for the film fest (ask justin or dave for info about this)
[Conference on Aboriginal Issues- Monday 23rd March- Thursday 26th March (Monday and Tuesday Film festival and Wednesday and Thursday speakers)] Les peuple invisibles
- design for t-shirts // buttons
- go through CD from last years exec + look through booklet that the prev. promotions coordinators made
- find out what time we will be back from trent on saturday
- find out deadlines for flyer designs
- submit photos from Brazil for Global Arts Night - talk to Sara/Liz about submission regulations


- buy dvds to burn brazil/quebec photos on
- look for + develop 3 (2?) rolls of film from holga

- fabric/elastic/thread/sewing machine tune up

- finish and email in YIIP application - 3 diff. cover letters.

- FIND A TREE THAT GROWS MONEY - keep it secret, put it to good use

Another 3 months in Brazil?

YORK INTERNATIONAL INTERNSHIP PROGRAM
Please note that applications will be accepted until 11:59pm, February 9, 2009 for the placements below ONLY.


Alytus State Boarding House in Alytus, Lithuania
Amigos de la Naturaleza en el Mundo (Friends of the Earth) in Sayula, Mexico
The Canadian Institute in Greece in Athens, Greece
Centro de Estudios de Estado y Sociedad (CEDES) in Buenos Aires, Argentina
Centro de Intercambio y Solidaridad, Solidarity Crafts Store in El Salvador, San Salvador
Consejo Colombiano de Construcción Sostenible (Colombia GBC) in Bogotá, Colombia
Deutscher Akademischer Austausch Dienst – DAAD (German Academic Exchange Service) in Bonn, Germany
Dublin City University (DCU), School of Biotechnology in Dublin, Ireland
Instituto Ecoar para Cidadania (Ecoar Institute for Citizenship) in Ibiuna - Sao Paulo, Brazil
Green Building Council Brasil (GBC Brasil) in Barueri, Brazil
Green Building Council of South Africa (GBCSA) in Cape Town, South Africa
The Gori Collection of Site-Specific Art in Celle, Italy
Janaagraha Centre for Citizenship and Democracy (JCCD) - GIS in Bangalore, India
La Salle University, Center for International Education in Mexico City, Mexico
Lewa Wildlife Conservancy (Marketing) in Isiolo, Kenya
Maddox Jolie-Pitt Foundation (MJP) - Early Years Project in Samlaut, Cambodia
Maddox Jolie-Pitt Foundation (MJP) - EcoRanger Club in Samlaut, Cambodia
Mexico Green Building Council in Mexico City, Mexico
National University of Mongolia (NUM), Faculty of Biology in Ulaanbaatar, Mongolia
National University of Mongolia (NUM), Water Research Center in Ulaanbaatar, Mongolia
New Zealand Green Building Council in Auckland, New Zealand
Pinelands Creative Workshop (PCW) in St. Michael, Barbados
Turismo Rural Ecológico del Corredor Biológico Alexander Skutch (TURE-CoBAS) in Quizarrá, Costa Rica
University of Music and Performing Arts Vienna in Vienna, Austria
University of the Autonomous Regions of the Caribbean Coast of Nicaragua (URACCAN) - Linguistics Research and Cultural Revitalization Institute (IPILC) in Bluefields, Nicaragua
University of the Autonomous Regions of the Caribbean Coast of Nicaragua (URACCAN), Nueva Guinea Campus in Nueva Guinea, Nicaragua

I am applying to the ones that are bolded.
I probably will not be able to get letters of reference in time for my interview (if, I even pass the first round of selection... but I'm banking that I should. I did last year, and I'm basically handing the exact same application and cover letter in with a few additions..) but maybe maybe maybe they'll be lenient because of the strike.

If not, I still have the opportunity to go to Washington for 3 months during the summer and work at the IDB.

NOW IF I COULD ONLY GET A JOB...

Que coisa de mierda.

I need to start scrapbooking my 6 month ordeal in foreign language territory.

But, I have yet to take out the bulging ziploc bag full of receipts, ticket stubs, beer bottle labels/caps, polaroids, feathers and newspaper clippings from my backpack that has been chilling in the same corner of my room as it has for the last month, where I dumped it when I first got home all those weeks ago.



On a related note, Ayman had kept pretty much every bottle cap from every bottle of beer we had ever opened the entire time we were in Manoel Viana, and when he took out this HUGE plastic bag FULL of caps for distribution when we were at Camp Boscoe, we all got hit with a face full of a... yeasty... smell when the bag was opened. I hope this does not happen to me.



ANYWAYS.

Here is the line up for Coachella - a music festival I will probably just have to resign myself to dreaming about going to ... unless someone amazing comes along and offers me a road trip and wristbands....

Seriously? Each day guarantees a dance party and a good time. If you're too lazy to read I WILL SUM IT UP FOR YOU.

Day 1: Girl Talk, Crystal Castles, the Presets, Los Campesinos!, Steve Aoki (and Leonard Cohen and Morrissey, not the dance party type, but legends in their own right.. and Paul McCartney, I guess)

Day 2: FLEET FOXES, Hercules and Love Affair, Surkin, Glass Candy, Billy Talent (just kidding)

Day 3: Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Lupe Fiasco, Peter Bjorn and John, PUBLIC ENEMY, ahhh Paolo Nutini (sorry), the Kills, Sebastien Tellier, Late of the Pier, Junior Boys

if i had the money...

I would buy this for you Sasha:

orrr if it came in an XS.

But it doesn't and the S is out of stock so I can't even buy it for myself.

boo (n).

consumerism

Even from the far corner of small town Quebec, without a credit card, without any income except for $15 a week, and a weekly expenditure of an average of $25 a weekend on booze, I still manage to keep consumerism alive.

Thank god for Paypal and international shipping.

I just bought this:

So cute! I'm super excited for it's arrival. I just hope it won't take 1 month and a half to arrive.. because I won't be here any more.

Shopping has become a distant memory for me. For the last 6 months every item of clothing I've acquired has been second hand - I do a weekly tour of all the second-hand stores in Valleyfield, and even in Manoel Viana, I managed to find a second-hand store (which is an amazing feat, since the town was so small, and barely had anything in it...) where I thrifted little boys button downs (actually if you think about it, it's kind of sad to think about - I'm wearing the castoffs of someone from a small-town in the South of Brazil... oh well). I don't think I'm capable of buying anything over the price of $5 any more. I actually balk at the thought of paying $5 for a sweater that looks brand new and has the tag on it here.

My host mom has promised me a trip to Montreal for shopping purposes, and besides the fact that I'm pretty much broke (or will be soon.. Halloween is on a Friday this year!) and have no access to a credit card, I'm dying to walk into an H&M, UO and/or American Apparel. (Let the stop-supporting-global-capitalism lectures begin!)

Out of the 5 pairs of jeans that I brought to wear on the trip, 2 are too tight and way too uncomfortable (I guess I did put on some weight...), one has several rips in the crotchal area and paint on it from digging, planting, and painting in Brazil, and one has a hole in it from falling off my bike. Someone purolate me some clothes please. I'm tired of fighting with little old men for plaid flannel shirts, little old ladies for cable knit sweaters, and buying mens undershirts to wear as dresses.

On the other hand, I will return home with the most impressive collection of plaid shirts and grandpa cardigans that Mississauga has ever seen.

The other day I bought a hand-knit, long, heavy wool sweater at one of the stores for $10. I wore it all weekend during mid-project, and at night I put a light hoody under it and spent the whole night outside by the camp fire, and I could not feel the cold even if I wanted to (this could've been attributed to the Fireball mixed with chai that I was drinking... but I really don't think so). It's magical, and probably the best buy I'll ever make in my life.

At least if I wanted to I could dress up as an old man for Halloween. It might be easier than dressing up as an 80s aerobics bitch, or a poutine...

Does anyone know what I can wear to cover my ass if I dress up as an 80s aerobics bitch, with my AA raglan sweater on top, and leggings and legwarmers? We all know how I feel about wearing leggings as pants...... RAFAY, I AM LOOKING AT YOU FOR IDEAS. Something that can easily be thrifted. I couldn't find short shorts at any of the thrift stores I frequent.

(wow, there are a lot of pertinent tags for this post..)

Frankie Magazine

Frankie Magazine always seems to have the best photoshoots.

The only problem is that I can only get issues intermittently... and they kind of cost a lot.

tl;dr

Sorry for the lack of updates and the failure to deliver on prt 2 of the boys guide to fashion.
I've been totally busy as of late, trying to pack and do final preparations for my trip, along with working, going to school and putting together this fundraiser show at big slick for the trip.
I honestly can't wait to get out of here and have everything fall away. I've been burning myself out and it's been apparent.
I totally had a breakdown yesterday which resulted in me throwing a piece of pizza in my brother's face, having a beat down, throwing various objects and me locking myself in the bathroom for hours uncontrollably sobbing and hyperventilating.
In my defense this was not unprovoked and was a culmination of conflicts that I have been having with my brothers for the past year or so.
However, in retrospect I guess I could have handled it differently, but then that's with a lot of things that I've done. I'd just like to say that my reaction was severely augmented by the fact that I have not had a good nights sleep in 2 weeks despite the fact that I have been up at 5:30am everyday to do the most mind-numbing menial task ever and come home completely exhausted from school, on top of trip preparations, the looming date of my driving test (which I must pass, or else lose my licence and have to start all over again) and this cloud of worry over the amount of money I have to come up with in order to participate on my trip. Donations have been hard to come by (sadly only a couple of people have stepped up to help out), and I'm worried about putting up the money myself because I still have tuition to pay for (and no, I don't have OSAP because I'm not eligible for it, apparently).
There have also been some family issues at play here which all add to my reaction.
However, do I regret it? No. Neither do I regret all the things that I said in the heat of the moment because I meant a lot of them. Could I have expressed them in a better manner, minus the yelling, screaming and colourful language? Yes, but then the point would not have been made as strongly as I needed it to come across. If anything I wish I wasn't hyperventilating so hard and that the message came out clearer.
Since then, my family has been treating me... delicately. It's been a day since the meltdown and everyone's been super nice and almost patronizing as if any little thing may trigger another incident which, in all honesty, is probably right.
I'm ready to leave. I'm over my house, my family, my "friends".
I don't think I'll come back. While in the process of packing for my trip, I've also been working on packing up my room. I don't feel at home here any more, and ever since highschool ended, I've always said that there's nothing holding me to this city. I'm ready for the metropolis of downtown Toronto, with which I already identify as my home.
Does this qualify as running away from problems and issues that should be resolved? Maybe, but I feel like, now, it's more needed than ever and may be considered more if an extended vacation.
I have 3 weeks left before I depart and I'm going to work as hard as I can to hold it together till then. Whether or not I'll be able to is a whole different story. Already my body is showing signs of the stress that I've been going through. My right arm is sore from vaccinations, I cannot lift my left arm very highas a result of repeated movements associated with work and carrying my laptop on my shoulder for the 2 hr commute from work to school as well as the 1 hr commute from school to home, there are blisters on my feet, and a large bruise on my leg that's created a visible lump on my shin.
I'm running pretty raw right now... another couple nights of no sleep along with more to do could tip me over the edge.
I hope not.
But I can't help but feel that I may be in need of a vacation before heading out on the extended version.

M.I.A: no more music?

M.I.A is going to launch her own clothing line featuring leggings, bomber jackets and t-shirts, all featuring bright colours and bold print.
Not sure what to expect?
Just google image search her.

Collage [source]

Hopefully her leggings will be better than Lindsay Lohan's - although you can't really argue with the functionality of pockets and knee pads....

Also M.I.A. related, MTV has reported that she's looking to get out of the music industry and focus more on art.

So no more fly high like paper, get high like planes? This is sad!

There's no date or name set on the launch of her clothing line yet, but i guess if she doesn't make sweet music any more, you can at least dress like her... [source]

In other non-related news.. I hit up Value Village this morning (finally!) and was able to pick up the cutest flannel shirt, and an awesome blazer - both courtesy of the little boys section. I'm wearing them as cropped with 3/4 sleeves, and my mom tried her best to persuade me not to buy them because they're obviously too small, but i think theyre cute!

I also picked up a pretty old school camera with flash! for 5.99, so I went for a bike ride this afternoon with my brothers to this really weird sketchy bike trail in Streetsville to test it out. I'm not sure how well the pictures will turn out, the light metre doesn't work so I had to rely on the rule of sunny 16 and i'm just no good at estimating how many stops to go down and up according to light and shade variance. (if you can explain this, please help me!)

I also brought my polaroid, and got a couple shots with that. I'm on the 2nd box of my first pack, that means i only have 18 shots left! I'm seriously thinking about buying like 10 boxes off ebay for Brazil...

Anyways, I'll post pictures of the blazer and shirt soonish, and I'll scan the photos I took with the new (to me) camera as soon as I have them developed. There's also a post coming with all the polaroids I've shot this week (I'm working on a series.. it's still sort of in the works.) So stay tuned!

Forever 21.

I've been incredibly cavalier with my money these days.

It's so horrible.

I was asked for advice on dresses one would wear to a wedding (as a guest, not as the bride) and all examples were given to me from the Canadian Forever 21 site.

I am not a huge fan of Forever 21, it was novel when it first opened here, but after a couple of months, the novelty's worn off. The store is always in a sense of disarray, and although you can find some things that are cute and their prices are right, a lot of their selection seems to be heading into the direction of other lower end fashion for cheap stores (i.e. Sirens, Stitches).

However, I've never browsed their site, and given the chance to do so, I took it and am now contemplating an order that would empty my wallet for the next month or so.

Forget being bad for your wallet, I'm horrible enough for my own.

So, the things I'm thinking of ordering?

This jacket.
I'm not incredibly sure how this looks in real life. I hope it's not that shiny.. but I've been wanting a leather jacket for soo long. (or faux, in this case). It's listed at 62.80, but everything's 20% off so it comes to 50.24 and you get free shipping if your order's $75 or more, which it will be, because I'm thinking of combining orders with a friend

andThis skirt, ever since I saw padthai wearing it on whatiworetoday2 on Livejournal.

Admittedly, I only want this skirt so I can replicate the infamous Luella look that inspired padthai's outfit..

But I am lacking in the shoes..
Oh wait, Forever 21 has shoes as well.

Please help me.

edit//

I've decided on purchasing both, after seeing how cute they look together in the shopping bag. =/

Its like an instant outfit.

This is so bad.

um wtf

No, your eyes do not deceive you.

Those are high-heeled Crocs.

I cannot wait to see you wear them, teemed with your cut off denim skirt, lacy capri leggings, and spaghetti-strap tank top.

OH SO CLASSY.

Comfort AND style, ladies. Yes, you too can have it all.

And all for the very affordable price of $49.99.

If red is too racy for your tastes, these beauties also come in a sophisticated black.

Feeling sassy? Maybe the bronze, or the two toned silver/lavender.

Out for a night in the town? how about the "chocolate/cotto"? You'll be a magnet for all the guys once they see you in these. Every man is looking for a woman who tries to mix trash and style.

I CANNOT BELIEVE THESE EXIST.

THIS IS LIKE TRYING TO MAKE TRAILER TRASH NOT TRASH BY TELLING THEM TO CLEAN THEMSELVES UP, AND AFTER 15 MINUTES THEY EMERGE WITH MORE LIPSTICK ON, WITH THEIR CLEANEST PAIR OF DENIM CUTOFFS, AND WITHOUT A CIGARETTE IN THEIR MOUTH, BUT ONE IN THEIR HAND AND THEIR NICEST LIGHTER IN THE OTHER.

IN FACT THEY'LL PROBABLY BE WEARING THESE SHOES.

romperss

i have been looking for the perfect romper for the longest time.
and then last night, i stumbled on this beauty on ebay.


I need this!
the only problem? there are still 7 days left in the auction, and it is already at $86.00!
(plus 13.00 for shipping.) ridiculous!
I guess I'm not the only one looking for the perfect romper.
And so the search continues..